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...27 is a good start for now...

(Dad, Me, Mom)
a country song, alright by darius rucker, bout how i feel and cuz my moms love of country got me liking it too...
my lovely mum's bday is today, the 20th of january....and i totally forgot that.... ahhhhh.
maybe it would feel more like an ahhhhhh if my mom actually cared bout her bday. shes like me... or... im like her... in that we dont really like our own bdays... we prefer that u not greet us and tell us how old we r...or getting.
so...they picked me up to gimme a ride to state so i can crash an ochem class that i need to get into the ABSN program by summer time, possibly july. i say.. hello..morning!...and my dad was like... um.. anythin else u wanna say?... .... .... um... nope.. not really. haha. happy bday?...oh! shnap! yes..that too! happy bday mom! 0_0 fuck, i jus had school and work and debts on my mind. my mom to my dad was like..oh stop.. sayin its my bday... im not young anymore, i dont need u remindin me how old i am. yup..that sounds like me..right now. haha.
@state... the new ochem teacher seems ok enough. saw frank vega (seaworld coworker) there too. nice. i think him and his girl are chem majors. perfect for me...ive never gotten higher than a C in any chem class...and i need at least a B
my parents picked me up and we ate at chamorro grill on mission gorge on me in honor of my moms bday. my dad remembers the food cuz thats where my brother was born, in guam. btw...that place is awesome... the staff are always hella cool, especially the lady on register in the front, an oldie, but a goodie, haha
gettin rides from my parents is both a good and bad thing. sometimes their bickering gets to me while i try to ignore it. lately..ive realized jus how old they really r getting... and got me thinkin bout them and how it was before and how time is moving...fast. they r both almost 60... i still remember when i was making them presents in elementary school for their bdays in their 40s.
so who r my parents? for most of my life i can sadly say... i dont know. but i can happily say that... in recent years... ive gotten closer and closer to them, and spent more time with them more than any other time in my life. the more i do... i can see where i get different parts of my personality and attitude from.
lets start with my dad... he was in the navy for like 20 yrs. retired. proud of it and the experiences hes gained from it. not the best decision maker in the world. a dreamer. prolly too much into the dream and wat could be...than in reality and the actions needed to achieve those dreams. not much of a risk taker. distrustful of everyones true intentions...kinda holds him back from doin things. very unselfish. will do anythin in his power to see his children smile and be happy. can go overboard at times...but has the best of intentions with it. kind of a loner. has only been with one woman in his life. my mother. they were pen pals. and it grew from there. very loyal. sometimes wont stick up for himself or fight when hes been wronged, hell jus settle and pay for it to avoid confrontation...
my mom... an asshole...haha... like seriously... she likes saying stuff that will irk you or push ur buttons...or to see how u will react. yup..thats where i get my asshole side from haha. a social butterfly...who will talk to anyone. she doesnt mind stickin up for herself and fighting for wat she believes is hers. willing to do and try things beyond her known skillset... a knack for improvising both in job interviews and on the job. her stint as a nurse/caretaker was hilarious. she was asked to take someones blood pressure. haha she didnt know anythin bout that, she tried, and said that she couldnt see becuase she didnt have her glasses, so she had the other nurse do it for her...she watched it done, so she could do it later.. haha. thats where i get that attitude from. shes more of a doer. a think second kind of person. my dad is a think first person.
so where do i fit in all this? im a mix of both. im an asshole that actually cares but jokes around cuz its fun. i dont mind lying to get a job or trying to do somethin cuz for me the attempt at it is most important and thats where the learning comes from. id rather spend time and money on other ppl to see them smile first before me. i like to dream bout wat could be and wat i could do.. sometimes a lil too much... but my moms side of me makes me try to make it real which made me wanna complete college.. its that same side... that has me doing it at a much slower pace than ppl around me cuz i wanna have fun and never grow old or...grow up for that matter.
dont why ive been thinkin bout this. maybe i can feel time outrunning me and my need to catch up is making me think. my mom is 59. dad will be 58 in june. im turning 25 in march. i gotta get moving. money aint everything. i know that. never did have it growing up. i can live without it. but it can make things easier tho...
..not having to worry bout spending time on making money means...more time spent with those i love...family...and friends...and in the end...thats all i really want and all that i am gonna work for.

...because there was a sewage and water pipe leak and there was no running water so the cafe part was closed and because Pierside needed some extra help...rode with the Waterfront bartender whose bar was closed but was not told that til he got there so he started drinking a pitcher of beer then was asked to help out at Pierside. haha.
we get there and the guy there is super chill. the place? more dead than Waterfront. my supervisor for the day was like... 'so wat can ya do?'...i say...'everything'...haha...so i man the register and he does the kitchen and food orders. THEN he was like...how old r u? i said...'24'...he said cool u could do the bar too if u want. then he was like, u can drink beer too if u want too, i dont care. WAIT...FOREAL?! sooo...ur tellin me....i can DRINK BEER?...for FREE...AND...collect TIPS...WHILE getting PAID FOR ALL THIS?!?!?...i cried a little after being told this. haha.
question of the moment/day...wat to drink at my bar? they had bottled beer...wine...no hard laq...mightve had it before cuz there were shot glasses..and they had bud light, stella and Shock Top, some belgian white wheat ale on tap
